WOW I had abandoned my blog for NEARLY ONE YEAR!
Damn...what happened to my resolution of maintaining a blog for as long as it takes?
Anyway I guess the past year had thought me a whole load of shit that I am actually thankful for.
Been thinking a lot lately on how I have evolved the past year and it took a certain fellow scorpio to point out to me on how much I have not been my REAL self. He is lovely but perhaps a bit too idealistic for me to be with, lets just say I am no longer in that dreamy state where romance and all is very much alive.
Romance is bullshit to me as far as it goes. I guess being with sun was not sunny at all.
Everything was so damn rigid, my heart feels like it was covered with concrete.NOt that I wanted to, more to I had to conform to his ways so that I can feel less hurt.I had to conform to being a robot, someone who had to have a schedule and stick to the schedule if not you will be deemed incompetent and less capable in his eyes. so for 6 months or so, I developed into someone I barely knew..JUST so I can think that I was happy with him.
Anyway now is a new beginning...been talking alot with several of my best buddies on what an ideal relationship should be, and of course there are so many views on this matter.
You guys are awesome for having such strong opinions and such fantastic theories on this.
As for me, I cannot seem to grasp on to my old idealistic ways anymore.
As Jev says, we have to settle for DO ABLE relationships.
Is that right? I mean is this world so deprived of right partners for us that we have to settle for DOABLE partners?
DO you want to marry someone just saying he/she is all I can find.
Don't you want to WANT to marry your partner?
and do you believe that your wife/hubby can actually be your lover as well?
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