VOLARE!

Volare is the Latin and Italian word for the verb to fly; adding an acute accent on the final e (volaré) it is also the Spanish word for I will fly.

Pienso que un sueno parecido

No valvera mas Y me pintaba las manos y la cara de azulY d'improviso el viento rapido me llevo

Y me hizo volar en el cielo infinito Chorus

Volare oh oh Cantare oh oh oh oh

Nel blu dipinto di blu felice di stare lassu E volando, volando feliz

Yo me encuentro mas alto

Mas alto que el sol

Mienstras el mundo se aleja despacio Despacio de mi Una musica dulce tocada Solo para mi Pienso que un sueno parecido

No valvera mas Y me pintaba las manos y la cara de azul

Y d'improviso el viento rapido me llevo Y me hizo volar en el cielo infinito

Sleepless nights

As of late, I have been experiencing intermittent sleep and reaching office late. Damn

It could be due to a few factors, perhaps.
Work anxiety and I have to admit I have been thinking way too much for my own good.
So many random thoughts just fill me head, sometimes there is not a single moment for a breather.

Somehow I'm always plagued by this BLUE feeling. I think its dangerous because it sucks you deep inside and sometimes you don't feel like coming out of it.
And it is so fcked when you actually enjoy feeling blue!

Layaning James Morrison's When the Pieces Don't Fit Anymore..damn...
Why la so emo always...well there's someone who is the exact replica of me who is trying so hard to please me and cheer me up but somehow the pieces don't fit!
I know it sounds damn cliched, somehow he would seem like all I ever wanted all I ever wished for but the heart is just not there.

What happens now when you have what you have always wanted but somehow you just don't want it when you have it. I know i know its such a big paradox!!

Sometimes life is so contradictory and somehow everything is so paradoxical.

I deserve to have my toe shot for complaining. There never seems to be enough of complaints and sometimes i'm so sick of myself for having to complain and be blue. Like wat the fuck is wrong with me..

I have everything everyone would want and still I am not happy. Something is seriously wrong in my head.

Fuck me....

Sometimes you can't make it on your Own

Tough, you think you've got the stuff

You're telling me and anyone

You're hard enough You don't have to put up a fight

You don't have to always be right

Let me take some of the punches

For you tonightListen to me now

I need to let you know You don't have to go it alone And it's you when I look in the mirror

And it's you when I don't pick up the phone

Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time You and I... that's alright We're the same soul

I don't need... I don't need to hear you say That if we weren't so alike You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now I need to let you know You don't have to go it alone And it's you when I look in the mirror And it's you when I don't pick up the phone

Sometimes you can't make it on your own(Just say his name)I know that we don't talk

I'm sick of it all Can, you, hear, me, when, I, sing You're the reason I sing You're the reason why the opera is in me

Well hey now, still gotta let ya know

A house doesn't make a home Don't leave me here alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror And it's you that makes it hard to let go Sometimes you can't make it on your own Sometimes you can't make it Best you can do is to fake it

Sometimes you can't make it on your own

gone

Fak la...I wrote one pretty damn long emo post yesterday and when i clicked Post it, error link came up pulak... I guess the moment has passed and I will never be able to revisit that particular moment anymore. Anyway it was a very dark moment and I think the post would not have raised anyone's spirits at all. Ok basically wat i wrote was something about having an idealistic approach to marriage and relationship. I guess I dunch wanna get into that right now. Everyone, please check out Black Rebel Motorcycle. Its album is called BRMC Its a fucking awesome album, very old school black leather rock. It will make you wanna have a good mindblowing hard fuck! Raw and wild! grrrrrrrrr

Pictures of a distant past

Whoa lighting is bad for this pic, all of us dark nia...however the backdrop of the Redang sea is just so breathtaking! (April 2007)

<--- The lovely babes on this drunken escapade in Langs

<-- I love this pic, not for the two boys in this pic of course but for the scenic view along the coast.

The background is simply postcard perfect.

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Taken on a lovely Saturday morning in Langkawi on the 4th of May 2007.

I'll never forget our mabuk escapade!!

Dark Moments

I wish I can be stoned like that all the time......

WOW I had abandoned my blog for NEARLY ONE YEAR!

Damn...what happened to my resolution of maintaining a blog for as long as it takes?

Anyway I guess the past year had thought me a whole load of shit that I am actually thankful for.

Been thinking a lot lately on how I have evolved the past year and it took a certain fellow scorpio to point out to me on how much I have not been my REAL self. He is lovely but perhaps a bit too idealistic for me to be with, lets just say I am no longer in that dreamy state where romance and all is very much alive.

Romance is bullshit to me as far as it goes. I guess being with sun was not sunny at all.

Everything was so damn rigid, my heart feels like it was covered with concrete.NOt that I wanted to, more to I had to conform to his ways so that I can feel less hurt.I had to conform to being a robot, someone who had to have a schedule and stick to the schedule if not you will be deemed incompetent and less capable in his eyes. so for 6 months or so, I developed into someone I barely knew..JUST so I can think that I was happy with him.

Anyway now is a new beginning...been talking alot with several of my best buddies on what an ideal relationship should be, and of course there are so many views on this matter.

You guys are awesome for having such strong opinions and such fantastic theories on this.

As for me, I cannot seem to grasp on to my old idealistic ways anymore.

As Jev says, we have to settle for DO ABLE relationships.

Is that right? I mean is this world so deprived of right partners for us that we have to settle for DOABLE partners?

DO you want to marry someone just saying he/she is all I can find.

Don't you want to WANT to marry your partner?

and do you believe that your wife/hubby can actually be your lover as well?